Cement shoulders. Shut down emotionally. Go-to strategies: denial, minimizing and numbing. In a perpetual state of freeze (fight/flight/freeze system) from Developmental Trauma and later PTSD. A fearful mind with racing thoughts and frantic attempts to control and find safety. Feeling unseen and unloved.
Fast-forward 25 years. I see and love myself. I am authentic and connect deeply. My body is relaxed and a known space. Trauma largely healed and resolved. I am mostly free of reactivity and I have skills to work with thought (words, images) and sensation. I know from experience I can be with whatever is arising in this space and time. I feel, at 63, that I am now an emotionally mature adult.
Lynn Fraser is a Senior Facilitator Trainer of Scott Kiloby’s Living Inquiries, a mindfulness inquiry to help you see through persistent self-identification with words, thoughts, feelings, memories and sensations. She facilitates people one-to-one, teaches classes on the Living Inquiries and hosts a Natural Rest for Addiction peer support group. She has been teaching meditation, breathing and yoga for over twenty years. She helps people heal from Developmental Trauma, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), anxiety and stress through meditation, yoga therapy and inquiry.